Reading back, I realised that I used to be a happy person who wrote a hell lot of stuff for people to read. And when I say 'for people to read', it means that there's some sort of topic to the content; so unlike now.

Do you even know what I'm trying to convey through those pathetically short sentences in every recent entry?
Well i doubt so.
Because I din't elaborate.
Because I din't explain.
Because I want people to think it through their mind.

I used to love to write.
Used to.
And how i wish i can write like how i used to be.
Maybe I should read, write and speak more.
I'm keeping most of the things to myself and that sucks.
Don't you agree?

Aww i think i sound like a big baby.

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I think I need to have my life organized.
And my health.
Like right now.
damn.

I always have the urge to cry whenever I read my own blog.
And that song playing at the back ain't helping.
But but but,
I'm not changing.

如果有一天, 你无法再唱歌, 无法再玩音乐, 你会怎么办?

The I-think-I-need-more-friends feeling is back.

=(

I have dreams that have yet to come true.
They are so huge, and seem so unattainable.

I used to wish to be older, like how teenagers wish that they're adults.
Like how they try to behave like one.
But i figure out that whatever an adult seem to have - house, car, life, freedom, etc, it doesn't come with age.
It comes with hardships and efforts.
Hardships and efforts that I do not have the confidence that I am able to put in and endure.
It doesn't feel good at all.

Life seem to be smooth sailing for you, but that does not mean that it is for everybody.
Yes, you're wonderful.
You're inspiring.
You're a role model.
But that's to other people.

You've not seen how harsh the world is.
You're being protected and sheltered.
You're like a flower blooming in a nursery.
You're full of positive thoughts.
But till you're out in the world, you have totally no idea.

Oh.
On a side note, I kinda envy you.

Craving satisfied - cruncy & sweet korean strawberries!
$3 plus only from NTUC. Damn cheap.
Faster go grab them.

Feels great to drum again.
Like oh my, back to those olden days.

Dear blog,

Sorry for neglecting and not updating you since mid-February.
You should know why.
The theory exam was last Saturday. I'm pretty sure that I can pass, but if it's a mere pass, merit or distinction, I have no idea. Gonna be damn lucky of me if I manage to achieve distinction. The questions are tricky. That's all i can say.

In a few weeks time, I aim to start my piano lessons.
And oh, my driving lessons too.
Like finally, I know.
I'm also looking at part-time degrees.

Kinda ambitious yea?
But till then, I shall relax a lil and enjoy some good novels.

Same as usual.
You're going to support me through all right?
Thanks a lot.
=)